Wandering

I try I think I can make it

Life was good

I was in want of nothing

Until it happened

I drifted in the sea

Away from You

You called me out

I turned, afraid,

I said no

I wandered in the desert

My forty years,

Because I yielded not to what I should

I said no to You

My world crashed

Stubborn, I stood

I thought I had it under control

Life is supposed to be easy

“Eat, drink and be merry”

Is that my purpose?

I am told from all corners that it is

“Life is short, live it up”

“Loosen Up

Don’t be so uptight

Live it up”

There was a war those days

A war for my heart

To be the captain of my soul

You or the world

I stood on the fence

Afraid to fall

I didn’t realize it then

But the truth was

I have already fallen

And I have a choice

To make

Everyday

Do I fall on a cruel, hardened world

That has fake ideas

Plastered everywhere?

Do I fall into the hands

Of something that has no care

Whether I live or die today?

Or do I fall

Give up my life

To find it

You break my fall

You hold me up

On wings like eagles

My wandering heart

Was lost,

Now it is found

You tame my wandering heart

Into a live beating soul

That soars in love with all

I understand,

I will continue to wander

My heart is human

But the thing I do know

Is deep down,

I love You with my whole

I will never purposely

Leave You

I love You

And in You,

I have also found

A purpose

This is what I dreamed of

It’s what I love

And so I thank You.

My life isn’t meant to live up

It’s meant to live out

It’s meant to be given

I love You.